I fell in love with a girl who is no longer a girl...

A few months ago, I was talking to a girl (I should clarify that I’m also a girl). She and I got along really well—she was so kind and sweet to me that I couldn’t help but start to feel something for her. And apparently, she felt the same way. We would always say romantic things to each other, sweet words, and cute nicknames. And I’m not exaggerating, but I really, really liked her. I’ve never been someone who likes to show affection or get attached to people, but she managed to bring out that side of me that I didn’t think I had. But there was a problem… Despite all the sweet moments, I never felt a real interest from her. It seemed like she only replied to what I said, but didn’t keep the conversation going. Most of the time, she’d just say “HAHAHAHA” or “Oh no, love,” so I guess at some point that made me feel bad. Even so, I never said anything—I thought maybe I was just overreacting…

One day, out of curiosity, I was looking through her TikTok shares. I’ve never been the kind of person who checks other people’s profiles because I find it kind of stupid, but that day I got curious and did it anyway. At first, everything was normal—posts about her hobbies, things she liked, etc. Until I came across one in particular that said: “me when I see that GUY 💗” with a love song in the background. That completely shocked me. I didn’t know whether to ask her about it or not. I told my friends, and they recommended that I talk to her. I said I would, but in the end, I never did. I was too scared of losing her, too scared that everything we’d shared had been a lie.

Little by little, she started to feel more distant from me. I felt like she was ignoring me, and it was killing me—but you know what the worst part was? That it didn’t kill me. I suffered from her indifference toward me, and those thoughts about that “guy” wouldn’t leave my head. And I can’t deny it—I cried many times. I didn’t want her to leave me. Then one day, she just completely drifted away. We never talked again. She never messaged me, and I stopped hearing from her. It hurt so much—I cried a lot and blamed myself for so many things I don’t even know were my fault.

A few weeks ago, I gathered the courage to talk to her again. I thought maybe we could fix things. To my surprise, she replied—and she was really kind to me. We talked almost the entire day, and I swear I thought maybe we could make things right and go back to how we were before. But there was a problem… It seemed like she was already with someone else. Still, I didn’t want to walk away. I wanted to stay close to her, and maybe someday, she’d give me another chance to be by her side. I didn’t care if she lied to me—I loved her all the same.

One day, I was watching her stories when I saw a post she made about “Coming out of the closet ” I was curious, but I didn’t ask her about it. And only now do I fully understand it.

The girl I fell in love with is no longer a girl.

Now, he’s a boy, dating another boy—and he looks genuinely happy.

With that, I realized that I no longer had a chance. But still, it makes me happy to know his relationship is going well. And I wish that someday, I could talk to him again.