friends

i don’t really have any friends

in real life, i don’t

i’m a loner

now i know that sounds corny but look

nobody talks to me

nobody really acknowledges that i’m there

nobody will go out of their way to talk to me

and the little amount of friends i do have in school 

none of them take the same route home that i do

so i hear everyone on the bus talking with their “friends”

and i ask myself “why don’t i have that”

i constantly ask myself “what am i doing wrong”

“why am i constantly left out”

i feel so weird sitting here, not talking to anyone

nobody wants to talk to me

i’m a friendly person too

it’s not like i’m mean to ppl 

i’m pretty funny too

i’m also a good listener so

why don’t i have what they have

i probably just don’t deserve it honestly

yeah that’s it 

i don’t deserve friends

i’m gonna hurt myself toniht

just got some band-aids so i can properly actually give myself aftercare

cos i just kinda let it bleed