Youre Not Special

I think my life doesn't make any sense, it will never get better and I think a lot of the negative feelings come from the fact that I think I should be special. A feeling that deep down I can do something great for the world and be famous or have money or power, but I'm maybe just someone who was born to be normal, who is a little introspective. I don't know if I'm a narcissist or just someone who is deeply needy and pathologically thinks he needs to be loved by external factors but I just wanted to be happy or at least reduce the suffering