Birthdays?

I don't really know how to start this, but to be honest, iI think I'm starting to actually like my birthday. Sounds lowkey crazy, cuz who wouldn't like their birthday, right? I didn't. Not until a few years ago. The thing is, I thought I liked my birthday all these years, but I infact did not. It felt kind of weird, and awkward. My parents used to throw a hugeee party, and called my friends from my neighbourhood, they gave me gifts, we ate lots of cakes, eateries and all that, and I, without a doubt, reallyyyy enjoyed it. But, for some reason, I didn't ever want my birthday to arrive. 

My birthday had this very weird, strange feeling, and I didn't like how it felt on my birthday morning. The morning shower, my grandma usually being the first one to wish me, my parents giving me birthday kisses, my cousins calling from a whole different state at 6am on a cold morning, all of this warmed my heart but at the same time, it felt unnatural. 

Until a few years ago, to be precise, until 2 years ago, this was how I felt. But for some reason, all of a sudden, I didn't want my birthday to not arrive anymore. it's not even like a gradual liking to my birthday, it's like all of a sudden, I loveeee my birthday. 

I still wonder if the reason is because of how my parents don't throw hugeeee parties like they did before but still give birthday kisses, and my cousins still wishing me at 6am on a cold morning lol, or if it was my friends making my birthday so much memorable, or my online friends staying up till 12 am to make cutesy edits of mine, write me longggggg paras and fill my heart with love. But one thing that didn't change is how I'm still overwhelmed with love from my parents, my cousins, my friends, and my online friends.

And I do think it's all of these reasons. My parents still force me to cut cakes, invite my neighbourhood friends, prepare a feast, and make it a huge deal, but I reallyyy don't want to. It's nice to just wear new clothes, get birthday wishes, feel overwhelmed by love, and just end the day. I feel like it's still very special, regardless of the need to cut cakes yk. 

And, oh my gosh, I think the biggest reason why I'm starting to like my birthday is cuz of my friends. Like lowkey, I feel like I have the best trio that I could ever ask for, and the best ever online friends. They showered me with so much love this birthday, and I'm so so grateful that they even exist in my life. And my bestfriends, the gifts they gave me were so good I wanted to hug them sm<3

I do feel like I wouldn't like my birthday if it weren't for them. So, idk if this was a blog on what birthdays are to me, or if it was about how much I love my friends lol ><