socialization is hard!

Socializing has always been an off and off skill for me. I notice that if I'm not practicing it often through talking to others every single day, I tend to regress in the skill a lot. As a kid and preteen, I had severe social anxiety to a debilitating extent, and as I got older, I kind of brute forced my way out of it, forcing myself to talk to random people in public. Now, I find myself losing my conversational skills and falling back into that same pattern of barely being able to talk. I notice that after a long day of school, I can't stand to speak to anyone, and honestly, I can go hours without saying a single word. This only concerns me because I know myself, and if I stop speaking for a while, I'll never feel the need to speak again, especially when each conversation feels like dialogue in a video game where you're always trying to pick the best option, but oddly never can. When trying to talk to anyone, be it a family member, a teacher, or someone my age, the mood just always feels...off.