ᥫ᭡.ִֶָ𓂃mean girlz suck ୭ ˚. ᵎᵎ

boooo.. hai! currently sitting in algebra 2. I just moved 2 this school in august and its been pretty good !! but.. theres this ONE girl who is detirmined to ruin everything ive worked for. her name is jaz and ive never meant anyone as purely awful as she is. when i started here, there was a boy i had a crush on/liked and he liked me too. we talked for a few weeks and things were going rlly well !! until jazzy entered the picture. she started talking 2 him and he eventually started dating her. i was very upset and i cried a lil and she laughed at me :< like what ?! so obviously i didnt like her. 

she and the guy, (jayden), dated for a while but jayden would still speak with me. one day, he asked to meet up and i still liked him a lil so i did and we went to this lil park in da forest and we kissed. and things kinda went from there. but i felt really bad about it after so i told jazzy what had happened and she was totally chill about it ?! and she said she cheats on jayden all the time. idk i didnt know how 2 feel abt it but uhh.. we were cool after. 

after a couple days, she blocked me for no reason or so i thought, but then my friend sent me a ss of her story on insta and she had posted something about hating jewish people. im jewish and this upset me a lot !! my friend had a convo w her and she just kept saying worse and worse things about me and my religion and i was very upset so i texted her on snap and confronted her about it. she was very mean about it and made fun of me and even brought up my eating disorder. i blocked her and my friend went to administration about it. 

now. things between me & her jus got worse and worse.. i got super sick of it !! she posted about me on her story all the time making fun of every aspect of me. one day during lunch i was super angry and i yelled at her. me and her yelled for a bit but then her friend got involved and tried to fight me. she and i were both held back by the principals and i cried. then jazzy walked by laughing at me and i tried to run at her. we both got in trouble and admin had decided to make us talk it out which we did but she lied the entire time !! such a gaslighter !! she even brought some of my friends into it.

now, i wasnt supposed to tell anyone what had happened within the conversation but.. she brought my best friend into it so i obviously told her. also, this entire thing started in late august. its now mid-october and ive been talking to a new boy, who's name is august !! hes super duper sweet and i like him a lot. but anyways !! she had openly called herself a neo-nazi. what the heck... thats not somethin to be proud of ?! but i had her blocked everywhere and i didnt want to deal with her anymore. shes not worth my time.

skip moreee time and its now halloween. i dressed super cute !! as an angel !! and i went to augusts party and a frat. i got really high at the frat and i started to drink as soon as i reached augusts party. bad idea. it was the first time i'd ever been crossfaded and i had a horrible experience. i was with my friend who brought me outside. it was freezing, but at least i wasnt surrounded by as many people. i started crying, saying god didnt love me and i was going to hell.

my friends called august, who had just left to get more alc but he stayed on the phone with me trying to keep me calm. i kept thinking i saw the devil, then i thought i saw my past abusers, then i thought i saw jazzy and i started crying again. august came back and brought me inside because it was freezing and i was wearing a corset and a skirt. there was a little bed in the corner of the garage, where he helped me to and cuddled me until i was calm. then.. someone ran in telling us that the police had been called.

my friends grabbed me and ran me to the car. i lost august, but at least i was calm now. skip to saturday. august spent the night at my house, and we cuddled and watched movies an stuff and it was absolutely fantastic. lalala, monday was okay. but then yesterday, august informed me that jazzy had been texting him. she called him cute and was obviously flirting with him. i got rlly upset and unblocked her and yelled at her for trying to take my man. again. this is different, though. i really, really like august. i kept getting upset with her and she brought up my sh scars. which hurt on a different level.

there was no reason to bring that up ?! she called me attention seeking and claimed that i showed them off. no, i just have very visible ones. i hate my scars, genuinely. im sorry i do not want to cover my arms all the time ?! like what ?! august made me put my phone away and i started to cry. he held me for a while and told jazzy to fuck off. that night, auggie became my boyfriend. so today im supposed to have another talk with jazzy but im scared if i see her i will cry. i dunno. id like some advice maybe ? if u read all of this then you are DEDICATED. love yall !! byebye