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I don't think I'll ever be in love again, and I don't think I've ever been in love. It feels so hard and like a struggle that whenever I date someone, I start to resent them and avoid them if I don't get exactly what I want. I hate how simple, pathetic they are when they act like I'm "the one" and they'll never find someone better. They act like they can't be without me when they fucking forget they lived so long without me. WHAT IF I DIE? ARE YOU JUST GOING TO WALLOW IN YOUR MISERY? Please, people, move on.
People like this need to touch grass, always acting like a relationship will fix ALL their problems. WELL, IT FUVKING WONT. Get a BLOODY HOBBY OR ANYTHING, stop trying to use people to make yourself feel better.
IM NOT PERFECT. JUST because I'm kind, and I use my fucking head, doesn't mean IM PERFECT. STOP being PATHETIC and CARRY your own BLOODY WEIGHT. STOP SELF-PITYING. IM NOT a therapist, and if you ain't able to handle yourself, I won't be able to fuvking stand you.
I won't feel sorry for you. Stop trying to please people and do something YOU want to do.
I'm not against people who date; in fact, I find it really sweet and lovely seeing couples in the streets being affectionate with each other. And i really love the idea of pure, realistic love.
IM NOT A GOD. IM NOT AN ANGEL. IM NOT THE ONE. IM NOT THE LIGHT. im a PERSON. SEE ME AS A PERSON WITH FLAWS. UNDERSTAND MY FLAWS.
I've only actually enjoyed one relationship, I regretted and I kinda cried BUT I AIN'T GONNA CRY ABOUT IT FOREVER. He felt perfect in the moment, but when you watch yourself, you can see the flaws. BUT the idea of still loving someone with flaws (THAT DOESN'T HURT YOU) is beautiful. The idea of only loving someone for being "perfect" feels selfish. NO ONE IS PERFECT. be realistic, youre just going to pressure your partner to be this bullshit they aint.
i say this out of LOVE and Frustration.
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veilednightmare
although i do agree with many if the points made im unfortunately kind of the type of person to go "mmmghhgg you're perrrfrffreedcvftyttt" and be insufferable T~T
many of these issues may come from attachment issues and all that- but i understand and enjoy this blog!! clock it dude
I don't think it's wrong to compliment a partner like that, but the idea of someone full-on actually believing their partner can do no wrong, has no flaws, and then INSTANTLY switching up after one mistake is just kinda shitty LMAO.
(DW I'm not saying you do that, pookie) There's nothing wrong with telling your partner that they're perfect or being a bit clingy; it's just important for both to know they're both flawed and not to have unrealistic expectations. But I definitely understand your viewpoint on how it can be caused by attachment issues
>:3
by xzqpwy; ; Report
yeah i see that - people like that need to like... change!! but usually experiences like those usually spur some change or something!!!
a little offtopic but ughhh relationships are so hard for me they always seem to explode randomly even tho i try hard (although the problem i think is i get too attached and then i get a little too comfortable around others lol) and because i just feel worse when im attached to someone it seems im happier when im more independent.
everyone is flawed like that i cant believe people dont think so or cant believe it and then switch up like that immedietly !!! but i dont know much about relationships except its.. hit or miss really. nobody will be "the one" and it can kinda crumble fast if someone isnt faithful- which is never healthy!
by veilednightmare; ; Report
I understand LMAO, when I was around the age of 13-14, I would be very clingy and I would get extremely attached to my shittty ex, who was definitely too old for me. I was really influenced by the media I watched too, which was really bad for my mental health---
And I definitely relate to the independent part. It's just more peaceful..
The best advice I wish I could give my younger self is to take these experiences as lessons on how to improve in my next relationship, friendship, etc. Make sure to self-reflect; it's a viable skill for the future. But tbh it really depends on both of the partners and the situation.
My bad if it seems like I'm trying to make the conversation about myself
(╥﹏╥) It's just a way I'm able to connect and show people I relate to others
by xzqpwy; ; Report
NO NO ITS OK I LIKE LISTENING ^w^
by veilednightmare; ; Report