failure

i hate failing
trying my  hardest and then just it doesnt work out
most of the time i fail i usually just dont understand what im doing
such as in blender
i dont know how to use IK rigs and most of the models i wanna do cool stuff with
use IK rigs
so i just spent like an hour trying to learn how to use IK rigs and i couldnt do it
i got so frustrated i started crying
i started crying over blender
im disgusted with myself too llol but
seriously i dunno what im doing
ive got school in like 4 hours so im  just wasting time
but i cant sleep 
this is horrible
this sucks man
i just wish i knew what to do
and was also good at it
ppl who know how to do this came from where i was too though
nobody is born good at blender
im nowhere near good at making poses
im nowhere near good at making backgrounds 
but this isnt about that this is about how stupid i am
i still dont know how to use IK rigs and its making me tear up writing this
i cant do that dude i dont know why its so hard to understand
i can use FK rigs though