falling asleep

why is sleeping so hard for like no reason
dude im like so enamoured with WANTING to sleep but i can never actually go to sleep
i do have like narcolepsy so like thats prolly a reeeason but even then this still kinda sucks
i also have a weighted blanket on my bed so i love love love my bed but even then its still kinda odd

i just like lie in my bed eyes open staaring at the ceiling 

it feels like i dont have enough energy TO fall asleep