11/4/25

Today my soccer season ended I wish it was a full year or smth idk I Lowk love conditioning I would do it for soccer a full year. I got a new affliction shirt today idk if I’m gonna wear it to skl but I may I js don’t wanna get ridiculed. Rn im listening to How to disappear completely by radiohead. Last Sunday I was in the kindergarten area and there’s this little girl named Lily she’s so cute I love her. She draws me a picture whenever I see her. My little sister ,Reese, finally feels comfortable with me braiding her hair. I can’t wait to have children I feel like I’m gonna be a good mom. I js need to find the right man. I don’t want to be with a boy who doesn’t liek kids cuz then I can’t take him to church w me to be with little kids. Well I would still take him he js wouldn’t like it. Also I want someone who’s willing to watch a show with me even if they don’t necessarily like it. Also he should be respectful to everyone. Also I want him to be able to hold a convo w me for like 30 minute idk or like ask me to go places w him and like ask to hangout. I don’t want to go to school tomorrow everytime I’m at school the only thing I can think about is my grades. I js can’t let them go below a 96 or I’ll get in trouble. Today at skl i entered a speech competition. I don’t know what im gonn write it about yet but I ahev some ideas. They didn’t give a prompt or anything to write abt so I get to choose. Maybe king henyr the eighth or bedrotting vs partying. Or the science behind the human brain. Ohh did y’all see the project X party like w capri or smth idk it’s kinda crazy. I liked that movie it’s pretty good . Right now im listening to el sonata by wifi skeleton. I think I’ll finish studying later then watch Hxh or some other anime. I will probably only study for one hour today because it’s getting draining. I studied for like 2 & 1/2 hours the last couple of days and i feel kinda burnt out. So I’ll only study for one hour today. My parents say I need to start speaking up but whenever I do no body listens so I think I’m js not gonna talk. I’m okay with it though I kinda like it it’s better to be quiet and peaceful the loud and chaotic in my opinion. I like being alone most of the Time but I like going to the mall w my friend Adelyn or paxton it’s fun to hangout with them. But I haven’t been able to hangout with Paxton s lot I think he’s been busy with his baseball or smth his parents make him do like 15 sports. He said that I should tutor him so that he can quit a sport. He doesn’t truly like to play soccer but his brother do so he has to live up to him and play the same amount of sports. I feel bad his grades are dropping because if it. I think they’re higher then last year tho. I hope we can hang out soon. Now I’m listening to I can’t handle change by Roar. It’s great I love Roar and blink-182 and uh Nirvana and a lot of bands liek them. Me and Adelyn stil hang out s lot tho it’s fun when I’m with her she has a light around her “Gon you’re light itself” haha that’s kinda what I feel like when I with her. I feel like a nerd in this blog but I’m not a geek I’m promise. The new phone ban is so bad Bru I can’t watch anything at lunch anymore so I acc have to talk w my friends but it’s ok I like talking but Only to certain people. It kinda sucks because Adelyn is in the grade above me so I can’t talk to her as much now either. I went to a Vanderbilt basketball game yesterday it was fun my grandpa and aunt were there. I think they won by like 30 or smth. When I go to skl I think I’m gonna start try to talk to new people it’s js hard bc one time I tried to talk to this girl Anna well acc all I said was “I like your jeans” and she made a gc abt me and made rumors abt me in it it was acc kinda funny to me bc she told my friends rumors in the gc and they sent me ss and added me to the gc she left so quick. Well if anyone is still reading have a good day and remember someone is and will love you just stay pat