OSDD is ruining my life

*burps*

ok hi ! i dont expect too much interaction with this but if you can relate lowkey let me know

it's not so bad bc my switches are rare (or i guess I dont notice them when they happen I kinda just go about my day. no black outs means i can somehwhat ignore it)

idk how to describe it, it's like I'm randomly different in terms of identity (stuff like voice, name preference, pronoun preference, and other opinions and preferences) but I'm still like. chilling I guess?

but it's negatively effected a lot of my relationships

I'll react differently or do/say things I dont want and would not normally say. it's surreal </3 idk

ive kinda been questioning if my diagnosis is valid bc it presents different than a lot of systems i know. like theyre aware of their alters and switches and know who they are when they switch. i'm sometimes aware of alters I guess ? but a majority of the time it just causes me to act against my will or makes me confused and distressed. ive had some comforting alters but I think my bigger symptoms are definitely identity confusion and acting in ways i dont want to.

please tell me it's not just me