why.

i have a boyfriend who actually loves me, friends who make me laugh every single day, and school is..normal. like, nothing is really wrong. but sometimes it still feels like something’s missing. i’ll be laughing with my friends and suddenly feel like im not really there. like im watching my life happen instead of living it. it’s not that im sad, i just get tired of existing sometimes, even when everything’s okay. i dont want to die or anything, i just wishes i could pause life for a bit and breathe without feeling guilty for it.