Allan we are so fucked. Ref/

Okay so I was put on medication for my ADHD last month basically a few weeks ago and I haven't been put on ADHD medication since elementary school when I was diagnosed at 6 or 7 years old (this is not a fucking 67 joke I hate brainrot with a passion.) I don't remember how early on in my childhood I was diagnosed with ADHD. So fast forward years later I'm now 16 turning 17 on January 29 and my mom switches my doctor because my original doctor moved to a different office somewhere else and she didn't like my last doctor that replaced her so she gets me a brand new doctor this year.

Litterly the first appointment we discuss a lot of things and one of them including my ADHD and how I've been functioning without the medication for half a decade or a decade?? Idk I'm not good at math. But anywho I got prescribed medication again after half a decade-ish and it honestly feels really interesting not a bad interesting but a good interesting?? Im not complaining that I'm on medication again. But I'm just rethinking about everything and my life. Since when I was younger and put on the medication at a young age my mom and grandma got into a fight and my grandma told her to take me off the medication since it made me "act like a zombie." In her own words. And that I'm to younge for it. I bring this up here because today my grandma went through my room and found my new medication and she texted my mom asking what's this and stuff like that. This just makes me feel uneasy since my grandma is going to say something about it. It's not my fault that I was born different from everyone else. Im just scared for what she's going to say. Allan we are so fucked ref/. 

Anyway Yes the medication dose help me in a bunch of ways but it still just makes me feel really different since I've always known I've been different my whole life from other kids and knew I was the odd one out of the strawberry bunch I know I've always been different from everyone else and I've always hated that. But this isn't me complaining about the medication this is me speaking for everyone who is neutrodivergent like me. Since society basically stigmatizes us as "weird" or "different" people or not even people at all. But it's not our faults that our brains were wired differently from everyone else's :( it's just how we were made and how are brains got wired at birth we just have indifferences but at the end of the day we are all humans just people who think differently then others and learn and act differently.

Anyway enough of me yapping about having ADHD and being neutrodivergent while being on medication. I just wanted to quickly rant about this since it's going to be on my mind for a while.