Everyone i know is in a relationship

Ok so basically this might sounds cheesy but i lowkey want a relationship but this might be too early since im in my 1st year of high school,

Its just that almost everyone I know is or has been in relationship and I feel kinda envious since I never had a partner before,

I’m pan but due to my home life I can’t be open about it 

I am really shy around new people but I always try to be nice to everyone, and I have a lot of friends .

I think I am more friend material than girlfriend material since people see me as the baby of the friend group and I have a goofy personality/I was considered the weird kid and people would ask me out as a joke I would know since there are always with their friends laughing/ and usually I try to the one making the first move but it usually fails… like so far uhm 4?

And I’m unsure how but people around me get into relationships,it seems really easy tbh but it’s hard af I wish I can stop having crushes at all since it doesn’t work out and I feel like a fool and to add on , unfortunately a part of me that I severely dislike abt myself is that I care too much, I’m a people pleaser ,like sometimes I care about someone and I care a lot abt them while they can’t even spare a glance at me,

Maybe it’s hopeless for me idk man I’m going to go cope by simping on fictional characters tbh 

This thing feels like that one song from the smiths “How soon is now”

I just wish that maybe someday,someone is going to look at me in a lovely dovey way