life update :p

vent:

life has not been the greatest for me lately :( every day i wake up and i just already feel miserable :(((

ive been trying to busy myself with work and hanging out with friends but... its just not working..

on top of that my best friend has been mia from social media, texting, calls, etc for now 4 days and im just really worried about him and i wish i could check up on him.. i sent him updates like alwasy still, i hope he reads them and it helps him a little 

i just really wish i could just lobotomize myself or smtg so i can just not have to deal with these awful thoughts and feelings i keep having...

sorry ab the vent :(