Things in October That Brought Out A Monster In Me And Made Me Wanna Become A Cop

-Wrote and sent an invitation letter to my art studio to a former best friend whom I was secretly in love with and hadn't spoken to in 12 years. Instead, she called the police, who then interrogated and humiliated me over the phone and threatened to arrest me if I ever contacted her again, then recorded my personal info for a database. She warned her family of me and now, I'm basically on a hit-list of her very wealthy family. She now lives in a rural mansion and got to explore the entire western USA for the past 10 years while having all the s3x and w33d she could ever want. Meanwhile, her evil first ex "redeemed" himself by joining the military and her second ex, who threatened to kill me, is living without consequences either.

-Almost all of my friends refusing to answer my messages or be available.

-Got a new job, but discipline is brutal. My social workers and a friend told me to suck it up and stop complaining. I cut off the friend last time we spoke.

-Seeing all the privileged millennials with their kids, pregnant wives, and stupid hipster fashion at my workplace, both as customers and coworkers.

-Being talked down to by smarmy millennial supervisors. 

-Mom completely desensitized and numb to everything I tell her. 

-Physically shoved out of bar on Halloween night by a security guard who accused me of illegally recording guests without any kind of evidence. I didn't even have my glasses on and just read articles on my phone while the others danced with their friends to rave music. 

-Friend talking me out of joining the military and suggesting I become a police officer, in part because you don't have to listen to or obey the threats of a civilian just because they say they're a military veteran. He said military vets often get taken down by toxic chemicals on bases, but cops don't have to worry about anything like that.