this SUX!

moved to singapore. shit sucks ass. it was so much fun at the start. got told it was a honeymoon phase which i didnt doubt but its hard to actually believe that until its over. lost my phone at halloween and had some realisations since then. i spent most my money already and its not even been 25% of the time i have here. the girl i want does not want me back at all and shes just been trying to let me down slowly bless her heart. i am a stupid idiot who has cant go a day without indulging in whatever i can find to indulge in. i knew i was spending 10 times my budget but i didnt stop myself and now it is too late!. i cannot afford a new phone. needed this reality check. dont know if im going to make any changes though. probably not. i never get anywhere.