i hate this oh god i hate this

I hate my yfucking life so muchhhh

Ive been suffering off depression for a few years now and for the last few months its been getting so much worse. 

My day consists of staying in bed for the whole day,going to school,cutting,reading manga,watching anime and smoking cigerettes. I genienly feel so awful. 
My crush also seems to stop all communication and I feel so helpless...
Ive tried suicide several times and it only made things worse 

fuck my life i dont want to go to school tomorrow...

XOXO Angelwithoutwingz