Adult life is actually so boring

Ive just turned 18 months ago  and I'm kind of having a crisis lol 

There's not really much to do when you're 18 (or atleast where I'm from) you can go to the mall or whatever but that's basically it. Im not the type of person to take classes or go to college because I graduated and honestly with my experience with people in school and stuff im still exhausted from it even months later. 

I'm not sure what my goals are yet, and I constantly feel like time is running out for me or either I'm just to depressed to do anything over the fact that I don't really have friends anymore, not really a support system besides like my new therapist and parents.  I do have online friends but its just kind of not anything new to me anymore. 

Its really hard for me to find a purpose to do things when im told I basically have to work the rest of my life, either that or I have to figure out what to exactly do with my life when I don't really have interest in things anymore. I never really go outside because I don't truly believe I'll find people and that they will actually like me, I've always found the wrong type of people to be friends with in my case.

For context im autistic, so I usually spend my time thrifting and collecting things rather than socializing or I draw at my house and listen to music. I find joy when I collect toys still because what the hell like in this time it's so hard to cope with the world we live in like you're telling me it's just going to get worse and I have to still try to figure out what to do with my own life?? 😭😭 Idk man.

I really try not to think about these things to much but it's like im going tbh I don't know how to do most things on my own and its kind of embarrassing, I never really go out on my own still,  I don't cook, life skills are just hard too generally. I'm hoping things get better for me but it feels so boring waiting for me to actually enjoy life.

Usually I'd try journaling about this stuff but when there's nobody there im talking to I don't really get it sometimes lol my thoughts are always racing nowadays.