i've always wanted to be in a band

i have never really had any musical talent, or played any instruments. but i have just always loved music and singing and all of the culture behind music. im kinda sad ive gotten to the age where i feel like i should be starting a band if i ever wanted to do anything and not just learning an instrument. so in that way i feel like i am "too late" even though thats not usually a mentality i subscribe to. 

i have a couple of friends who are pursuing music, but the scene where i am from isn't that big.. and none of the music being made around here is anything i particularly like (which also just is a me issue i guess), so i also just feel like its impossible to just stumble into being in a band. maybe i should have just taken my friend up on the offer to teach me bass when i had the chance...

and like, this is just like a deep rooted jealousy for the shitty band life. i dont even want to be something big, i just want to be something within music and create, playing in shitty venues and such. (im also a little sad that i will never be able to do stage gay, cause that's so funny to me lmao.)

oh well, we all have our dreams and this is just one of mine.