There's this girl in my life and i really really like her, but i get to nervous to have a conversation with her. However i do find ways to talk to her, and i strongly believe that she has the same feelings towards me, which is good news and all but i feel like we're not comfortable with each other enough. I've known her since about the start of school, i spotted her while walking with my friend to 2nd period and pointed Juju (crush) to my friend, such a small world but my friend knew her!! All good and all but i was hesitant to start talking to her. Juju was sorta intimating and not only that, i was too scared as i still am. but moving a bit forward i started noticing her a lot around school with is a good thing! I want something serious with this girl. The first "move" i guess you can say is that i sent a follow to her Instagram.. and it took her like two hours to following back and during those two hours I WAS STRESSING i was gonna undo it but it ended up well in the end. fast forward i decided to give her a follow we made in floral design which took a lot to go up to her cause she was with her friends BUT i did it wooo sean! but she ended up texting me "thank you for the flower :) sorry i freaked out... or idk" which I'm glad the feeling is mutual LOL. Also i forgot to mention SHE followed me on TikTok which was a good sign for me to indicate that she does like me back and is willing to talk to me! I also noticed she made a playlist about me!! The playlist name is "your paranoia is annoying to me" LOLL but the songs on there were mostly love songs. Then a few days later i grew balls and went up to her when she was by herself and walked her to class +1 for sean! however most of the walk was in silence which i don't mind but I'm worried if she thinking "omg this is so awkward.." but i wont know soo idk. but fast forward a little and now walking with her is a regular thing NOT TO BRAG. but its always for a couple minutes nothing too long, except for Friday, October 31, 2025, it was 4th period and my friend asked "are you gonna hang out with juju during lunch?" which I've been planning to for about a week or two but haven't really had a good opportunity, and i replied to my friend "maybe" and i was really nervous to ask BUT I DIDD scoree! however for the first 5-15 mins of hanging out she seemed mad sorta, which i understand she did have plans with her friends. The plans were to make slime cause the school we go to were offering students to make slime so i felt kind of bad. i believed i asked her something along the lines of "what do you want to do?" and she said "idk you were the one who wanted to hang out." and at the end she kind of cut herself off which was like damn okay but never the more i ended taking us to the cafeteria and put on the show "money heist" (such a good show) she put me on it! so i thought it was a good idea but i shoulda took into consideration that she's has watched it a bunch of times and it might've been boring to her but i digress. ALSOO we did match for Halloween which was fricking awesome, she was the hungry caterpiller and i was an apple LMAO. She had made the caterpiller from the book into a scarf which it look amazing i was impressed, and i made a cardboard cut out of the apple for my face kinda cool but not as cool as her scarf. However there is one thing i wish i asked, that being to take a photo of us matching. i really wish i did. however my future plans for Juju and i are that ima confess and see of she is really to take it to the next step and go into "talking stage" or whatever is next hopefully things go as planned and ill ask her out sometime after that. but for now i will keep trying.
Two awkward people who feel a spark not knowing how to feel about it.
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