Overthinking

So uhm i wanna talk abt overthinking…

I mean my boyfriend is the sweetest soul on earth but sometimes i catch myself overthinking he might cheat on me or he doesn’t love me anymore..

We’ve been together for soon 10 months and he never gave me any reason to not trust him but i’m still scared because he goes out drinking every weekend when we’re not together and in my last relationship i got cheated on on a party with 3 other girls, but back to my boyfriend when he’s with his friends he leaves me on delivered even when he’s online and i don’t wanna be a controlling girlfriend but it just triggers my overthinking so damn much..

He’s for real the sweetest soul on earth shows me that he loves me, tells me i’m pretty and everything but when he ghost me i feel like a total stranger to him I’m just so scared to lose him because he’s everything i have, all my friends left me and my mental health isn’t so good either at the moment so if he leaves me i have nobody and i’m so scared…

I don’t wanna be this type of girlfriend to tell him what to do and if I’m honest I’m scared to tell him this so I don’t know what to do.

Do you guys maybe have some recommendations?