Growing up only slightly Austistic sucked but also made me an empath [Rant]

(mb for spelling mistakes kinda writing this late at night)

So I'm Autistic, but I've always a lot less prominent signs of it, this combined with me & my family being from Bangladesh (for the record i live in Australia), a country where Autism is only recognized for the most severe cases, led to me being undiagnosed in a way where no one could directly guess I was Autistic but I still had difficulties chatting with people. And that SUCKS!!

It basically felt like I was chatting to others and they'd chat to me back but it was very clear they didn't care and I didn't know why. Plus when I tried chatting with special needs kids, due to my Autistic traits being pretty under the hood I couldn't really interact with them properly. End result I was pretty much a complete loner who no one could even realize all the way till like year 5.

Little me HATED this and that led to basically becoming hyper fixated on social interactions and learning to chat with people. The amount of social reading I was capable of back then was absurd. I could tell people were getting bored of me from fluctuations in their voice and even the FUCKING DIALATION OF THEIR PUPILS, lowkey a tad weird ikik. But yeah, lucky for me this paid off big time and I was able to make a lot of proper friends due to me becoming extremely good at reading people. I could even heavily flex my tone to be the opposite of how I may act with others to be more appealing to the person I was chatting with. Saying out loud makes it sound unhealthy but let me be clear, I was always being the real me, and I never regret being able to talk to others.

If there is one regret I have with all the social stuff I did, it is probably the fact it split me off from many alt communities kid me probably would have loved due to me seeing them as "cringe". Ig that's partly why I even made this account, to try meet new people and express myself in a way I never really got the chance to.

So uhhhh if you're reading this thanks cause even if one guy checks it out, that feels damn pretty cool. 

Also more doodles, prolly gonna throw one in every post cause their quick and atleast add something original/memorable to them hopefully.