"You're just not putting enough effort!"

You don't know how much I hate when I hear phrases like this When you don't know a damn thing about me. Like dude I literally cannot go anywhere because of my location. One guy I was talking to previously said that I should just drop everything and just start walking to the nearest town and just leave everything behind and start over fresh. This guy is fucking delusional. I had to explain to him that I have a lot of amazing stuff in my bed room that I'm not going to just part with because of that. Yes I live with my mother and as much as I hate it I would rather live with my mom than be homeless. 

I have a VR headset, a $3,000 computer, My Nintendo switch, a pretty decent size manga collection, by sewing machine, why the hell would I leave this all behind and restart versus staying where I'm at? 

Saying that it's bad to be materialistic but then again let me see you go a week without your cell phone. Netflix. Something that you use every single day. But that's not the point to this. The point that I'm trying to make is that people tell me that they understand how hard it is when in reality you really don't. 

I hate where I live but I don't have a choice. If I live with anybody else I would have been kicked out a long time ago because of my circumstances. I didn't get the job at Kroger in their Starbucks. I didn't get the job over at my old cracker barrel. Nothing is panning out for me and I don't know why. 

My mom seems to think that I'm sabotaging my own stuff. I tell her I answer the questions honestly but I also know not to answer them too honestly and I know what to tell people. I'm 33 not fucking 16 years old. I know what to tell an employer but also I know not to just blatantly lie. If I can't do something I'm not going to say that I can because what if my lie gets caught and next thing I know I'm doing a job that I have zero skill for and I hurt somebody or myself? 

I have no car, I have barely any way to get around, I don't have a job, I'm trying to make it at least as a small YouTuber and or an Etsy seller. Do you know how incredibly hard this is as well? I mean my work is at least getting seen but even if it's not by much at least it's something. 

Don't sit there and say that you could do the same thing or you could start from scratch and see how hard it is. I'm not sure what her name is but there Is this woman that has millions of dollars and she decided to see what it was like to be homeless for a week. She stopped after 3 days because she realized just how incredibly hard it was for the homeless. No one listened to her. No one helped her. Everybody would say the same things like just get a job. 

When you don't have a permanent residence it is so hard to get a job because no one will think that you're hireable. If you have a record at all most places won't hire you because they'll think that you're just going to get arrested again. If you're on probation they think that there's a high chance that you're going to get arrested at any point. 

The hardest thing about my life is that I cannot make a dollar here or there. Do you know what I'm doing? I'm collecting cans and putting them in a bag and trying to save up as many cans as I can so when I have the opportunity I can talk my friend into bringing his SUV over here and we take all the cans to my local metal recycler and I can recycle them. Yet I only get about 20 bucks. Which is honestly sad. That 20 can be gone within 5 seconds. 

You have no idea how hard it is for somebody like me. I have been trying to find a job online but they just don't exist. No one don't buy anything from my Etsy. No one will watch my YouTube videos. People tell me all the time that I shouldn't be making things for YouTube for people to watch but make things that I would watch instead and I've done that too. Nobody gives a damn about what I do. I'm only complaining about the fact that I'm broke not the fact that people care about what I make. 

Not to mention that I live in the middle of nowhere pretty much. I live on a road that's 55 mph with no sidewalks. I heard that all the big car manufacturers basically made it this way and they pay lots of money to lobby towards having roads that are really long and stuff that's far apart that you have to drive to. If this is true this is some evil bullshit and nobody's stopping it. I heard part of it is also the oil companies but I don't know if that's true. I don't know if any of that's true

You tell me to get a job, but you can't get me a job either. So tell me, what makes sense here?