Finding Peace in Loneliness

(This is probably going to be written horribly, just word vomit. apologies in advance) 

 About a year ago, I had to move away from my hometown to a new state. I'm not far from where I used to live, but far enough that I can't visit often. I live with my older sister. At first, the isolated feeling really got to me, being so far from everyone and moving out at such a young age. 

Everything was new and different, but you could imagine it overwhelming, too. Getting a job and having to pay bills, and experiencing what life is like after school (the stuff they don't teach you about).

Anyway, that's all just back story B.S, my main point is that in being alone a lot, I found a sense of peace, I used to get bad anxiety at the thought of going out and doing things by myself but bit by bit it's been getting easier. The mentle growth I feel like I have experienced beats being around friends all the time. The amount of time i've put into myself made me realize the many ways i've been neglecting myself. I've started taking myself on small dates; like going to the park or to the bookstore to get an iced matcha and new story to get lost into. I;ve started to appreciate the small things in life a lot more, understanding that it's all those small things tht truly add to the bigger picture. (cliche I know) I used to get so in my head about not going to college and having that experience that so many of my friends have, but in reality I am going through my own experiences and for once I can say I'm proud of myself. I've grown confidence and am able to stand up for myself, even against friends. 

if you're reading this and you take nothing else from this post, take this; Love yourself, give time and peace to yourself. <3

-Snoops