hallowseve

I don’t even remember the last time I talked here but since tomorrow is my favorite holiday (next to valentines day) I might as well do it. First I went to my first hardcore show awhile ago with my friend and it was incredibly awesome, It was on a Saturday and her father drove us. I’ve never been too such an intense music thingy like that and I enjoyed it. Before though I got into some random and very mild argument with my mother that slightly ruined my mood but didn’t ruin the whole thing for me thankfully , I think I’ve built an tolerance to the rage bait anyway. But after that show me and my friend + another girl that came with us would walk from the entrance of the show surrounded by people talking, smoking and doing whatever else straight across the street to a gas station , I know it sounds basic in hindsight but it felt like I was in one of those kinds of movies that only really strictly have aesthetic shots that everybody posts but never actually watched .. ex; lily chuchu (cause me included). The weather that night was perfectly cold too. Even though I hate wearing my glasses most of the time I can tell it was beautiful, also remember seeing I guy walk out of the pit with a bloody nose too. They were moshing obviously so I guess that’s just an common thing.

Speaking of things that have annoyed me, I kind of already knew what I wanted to be ever since last summer, it was Alice Liddel from madness returns lolol. but I still somehow procrastinated and now I have to come up with something at the last minute. Even though going to school has become a little somewhat enjoyable to me because of friends and stuff I just want the semester to end already. I also developed a new interest in the movie “bad boy bubby” ( fascination into characters that were extremely sheltered and then forced into the world by some other circumstance/outcasted men with unconventional behavior deemed by society) and throbbing gristle..which is an actual band but digress. 

I always feel behind hearing about  main guys of bands like these dying so late

This week though in class I remember reading some random analysis document about bad boy bubby, something around the overbearing mother trope being an example of something called the “monstrous feminine”. I wonder if that’s the same case in 1960. I wonder about a lot of things, also I can’t believe how bad boy bubby isn’t typically listed as an horror movie hummmm

(ps; I hope whenever you guys hear of things surrounding Halloween you think of me)

cya

https://youtu.be/zrMRks07XyY?si=6pJe8WZ0IW_RrQH9 (six bells chime - the crime & city solution)