help me

i already feel bad. i can’t. it literally physically hurts. i can’t breathe, and it feels like my heart is going to break my ribs from how fast it’s beating. i feel like everyone already knows about my feelings because it feels so obvious. and today there was that fucking look. he was just staring— to put it mildly— at me, and the fact that i was standing nearby doesn’t change anything, he could’ve looked anywhere, but he looked straight at me so intensely that hope started to appear. and it’s so stupid to dream about a guy who doesn’t care about me, who has a completely different type. i know all that… but i can’t stop dreaming every day about him, about him loving me back, and about us listening to music together. he’d find out about the playlist i made for him. he’d tell me about his feelings and trust me. i just can’t stop thinking about his lips every day, and about his eyes.