A Crush on a Girl!

So you know what love is? Of course you do, man...or woman...or space pirate wizard alien cat. Bet you didn't noticed i was single. You might ask why since i'm guaranteed to meet a girl at my high school years or so. WELP! That never happened.... well... it would've happened. So during my high school years, I met this girl named Tatyana. She was beautiful and i wanted to be friends with her. The problem is that.... I've never had a friend...AT ALL. I tried making friends, but it never happened. I used to have friends, but at times me and my family had to move away and live somewhere else not being able to tell them that i was moving and we wouldn't been able to meet again. I didn't even get to ask them their phone number mainly because my mom told me and my sisters to go with her, meaning we had to leave my brother and our dad and soon we moved to a different house. That sucks....but back to my high school year. So Tatyana was a black girl who was the only kind person i've ever met. Most of the people i've met in high school are just assholes and had that "I'm gonna mug you after school" look in their eyes. But Tatyana was different from them, but there was one problem... we rarely meet. Sometimes we meet each other once every 2 weeks and othertimes not at all. But we did talk a bit and got to know each other. But when school was over... that was it. I never saw her again. I didn't even get to ask her for her phone number or social media to msg her mainly because it was all crowded and it was raining and i lacked a phone to do that. So we never saw eachother again. Idk what happened to her after that. Probably moved away or something, but that was the last time i saw her. So a few years passed and moved away from her until I've met this girl on Instagram. Her name was....mers...usla20? IDK i just call her jessie. So me and Jessie got along well and we play Fortnite alot and soon grew a bond together where it got to the point where we started to like each other. It didn't last long...matter of fact it didn't even last a year and we didn't become a couple due to "religion" so it...kinda stopped. we stopped msging each other and soon after stopped hanging out. Many years later i kinda took a break from finding a girlfriend. But soon after i met this girl named Ssidia. She's a black vtuber who is the same age as me (i'm 21 and shes 21 too tho hers is at July and mine at January and she recently turned 22) I've mentioned her on my art blog talking about how i made a drawing inspired by her. Well thats her. She's actually a wonderful person, but ever since her ex left her, despite doing things to make him happy she never dated another person. I wanted her to be more than just that. I want her to be special and I'd give my life to be there for her. If she's going though a life issue, i'll be the light to keep her safe. I wanna be something that her ex wasn't. Someone who actually wants to be there for her. Thats what i wanna be. I keep being supportive on her twitter sending her supportive messages and always liking her irl outfits and always supportive and helping her when she's feeling upset. I'll always be the start that will wish her a better future..

Thats it for now, but If you wanna check out Ssidia here's her twitter and show her some love and support because this is someone that deserves it the most:

https://x.com/Ssidianutz

Her ALT where she shows off outfits and costumes: https://x.com/ssidislewd