that pretty girl

dude oml

OKAY SO BOOM

I think I wrote about this months ago but now more shit has occurred. This pretty scene girl right, she's in one of my classes this year and like I saw her for the first time after summer right before school started where u go to school and pick up textbooks or whatever. she got this hair cut and its so fucking pretty and suits her so well. yeah so we're like somewhat good friends now and I have a crush on her if it isn't obvious enough. I heard that she was aro/ace which rlly bummed me out and I cried about it for a bit but got over it soon. I just continued to be friends with her but as the week after that went by she was starting to be closer to me and would text and joke around with me after school. it got to the point of bickering or just looking at each other and laughing. and I know im not explaining this in detail,  but I told my friends about everythingggg that went on and after a while one of my friends told me like "hey I know you think she doesn't like you but I swear she does its all there". and then I wasn't trying to be delusional about her but she was genuinely making this difficult. like teasing during class etc.  she also started bringing me stuff like snacks and chocolates and if anyone else tried to take she she'd be rlly adamant about no its for him. today one of our mutual friends in that class pointed out our height difference and that shit was straight out of a fanfic. I overheard her and her friend like 2 days ago talking the her friend asked her "what are you?" and she sort of bit her tongue and said "I don't know" quietly. I asked 3 friends about this and they were all like DUDE ITS RIGHT THERE. and now im buying her shit like sodas she likes etc. after class on Thursday we're gonna do that trend on TikTok, the dance to that one MSI song (its her favorite band)

im writing this because im supposed to be doing homework but I cant stop thinking about her. whenever she posts her self online I always screenshot or save it because I want to look at it later. I have a note on my phone where I keep everything I know about her and the songs she puts on her instagram notes. she showed me all these songs and they're all so good. idk if this is relevant but like, we can sit wherever we want in the class we have together and her friends will always tell me to sit next to her. last week she offered to bring me these mangas she read bc I told her I read a lot. Im so down bad for her I started writing poetry and songs how corny is that? im still proud of it though. anyway I have to end this now or else I won't stop talking. I'll see how it goes :D and if she sees this I MIGHT be screwed. <3

EDIT:im so down bad now im thinking about learning instruments for those songs, she's kinda touchy ngl (im no complaining) and she likes touching my hair because she likes playing with my curls and because she says its really soft.

EDIT: im pretty sure she led me on (and still is) so ill see how it goes but ill probably stop talking to her after the holidays

pretty pissed off

EDIT: I don't think she knows I might just air her out slowly

EDIT: yk its fine if she's using me im exactly where I want to be in life ✌️🥹

EDIT 79269483: She's being gay as FUCK but also will make jokes/make fun of me bc im so single and lonely (not actually anymore but the joke stayed) and idk what that means bc im not rlly people smart so yeah, I got word from some peeps that her making fun of me for that IS INDEED gay but idk maybe im just delusional and hopeful 

dude if she finds this im genuinely moving to the middle of nowhere bum ahh country. anyway bai!