Gender is so complicated

My whole life I've been struggling with gender.

In Kindergarten I used to tell my substitute teacher that I was a boy and to call me Max. I'd get really upset when my friends told the teacher otherwise. Idk why, I was weird when I was younger.

But anyway, back when I had first found out about gender identity, I had first identified with the umbrella term demigirl,  then for a long time I was cis. And it was like this for a few years actually. 

And I recently got out of this really depressive period of time where I stopped feeling like myself and I was going by they/them.

Now I'm not really sure. Sometimes I feel male, sometimes I feel female, sometimes I don't feel like anything.

Its really complicated, yk?