Life's a shit lately

Hey,

I'm venting here because I have one to talk to, so...

Life's been such a shit lately. Like everyone is suddenly down or don't want to talk to me, and I don't know what I did. I'm trying my best, but my father only sees a burden, and I'm trying so hard. I've got better, and now I'm low again. Like half of my friends don't like me anymore or think that I'm too weird. I just don't know how much longer I can do this. I want this to end. Everyone's mean or rude, and I'm just listening to the talk about me, and I'm trying to change, but I don't wanna. I don't wanna change because I know that I change for them, not for me, and it's driving me insane. I've changed so many times that I barely know who I am, but it's not enough. It's never enough. I'm never enough. How could I make people like me when I don't even like my self? I don't know but I want it. I want to be important to someone. I never was... not to my family, friends, no one. 

Well that's all. Not really I have much more to say but I'm starting to feel like I'm seeking attention. 

Tessy out🤟