my mental health

my mental health has been a lot worse than it usually is i'm crying for no reason the slightest noise or raising of voice makes me flinch school is sucking every ounce of life i have left im a 100% sure im depressed but my parents won't take me to a goddamn therapist but i went to a child therapist when i was 5 bc i wasn't eating and i wouldn't talk to anyone and now i haven't eaten until today i stopped eating like 9 days ago and didn't tell anyone i just kept telling my parents i wasn't hungry and they just said ok didn't even try and make me eat anything and they constantly yell at me for no reason like my sister broke something and blamed it on me.....i got yelled at i spilled like a little bit of water "ELLA WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT" and just a lot more yelling my mom once called me a "fucking embarrassment" bc i asked someone a question about baby names and they didn't know we knew and my mom got Embarrassed because I asked honestly i felt embarrassed bc like i thought they knew i knew they were pregnant....but overall i feel like a giant piece of shit all the time