vent post i think

do you ever just feel tired of a lot of things
school, life, friends
sometimes i feel like im from the future compared to my classmates. they still use gay as an insult
school sometimes throws a lot too fast
my birthday's in 3 days but          no birthday party         not even the next weekend like usual
sometimes i think about my dad
he's
pretty scummy, all things considered
he says he loves me but doesn't really do any actions that like. truly show it
mom said there was a guy that said he didn't kill my dad because   he's a dad
he was. atleast fun. but. the rose tinted glasses can't do much here.
it's probably why i spend a lot of time on the internet and playing games. it's escapism
even then
the laptop i used to play a lot of my games, even with my childhood sm64 rom is. dead. and all that remains is the hdd. which is good news! but i don't have anything to replace the hdd with OR a sata to usb cable
it usually was as simple as a formatting or a laptop swap but    it was a hardware issue this time and it didnt make it
my mom sometimes. feels like the only one who  atleast tries to support me
sometimes i care too much about what others think
im stuck on the crappy VIT family pc. it's been here a long while. even getting replaced
yet
it's
really bad
and i have to use linux. i dont really like linux
sometimes i see my art and think it's bad. but. it's   actually liked by people.
i try my best and it feels like my worst anyways
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i'm just tired man can i have stuff go how i want it to for once