autism rant

The hyperfixations have been hyperfixating recently again, and I've literally been thinking how do people without autism live like................... I cannot imagine not being so overdosed on serotonin for days on an interest what are yall doing all day

also its like ALL MY INTERESTS that are coming back at the same time (i lowkey had a little dip for a bit but now its all back 1000x more) i mean sigzai has never really left but obv chainsawman came back with the new movie and i discovered xlov a few weeks back (they give me THE BIGGEST GENDER ENVY EVER!!!!! HOW ARE THEY REAL rui needs to teach me how to be so flexible because what the helly i wanna do that too and wumuti is just eating and being the most talented beautiful mama ever, haru is serving everything right now and HYUUUUUUNNNNNN 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍 not even religious, but thank god for these queer icons just hate the ai logo) 

Well, outside of allat another things I've seen is that I really cannot act with new people like i do with my friends. So I was being overly excited as usual talking to a friend at school and then this other friend of hers came by and those two just kept that energy alive and i fell silent AND THEN THEY THINK I DON'T LIKE THEM BUT NO I JUST DON'T KNOW YOU LIKE THAAAAAT idk if this is relatable............

Well that was another dialog from me, hope you enjoyed 😋😋 I've not been very much on this site since I've been crying over school work for weeks straight (wish I cared less but i wanna keep that 85%🫰)