Very toxic I know…

Anyone thinks the reason why they can’t make friends is because their standards for friends are unrealistically high? 

I can never and I mean NEVER keep a friendship(I mean I’ve tried but the other person just didn’t really care to be friends and eventually so did I)

Its very hard to make friends like VERY IMPOSSIBLE to connect with another human being….especially since the average person would disagree with my standards for a friend.

Me personally im not a big fan of my friend having other friends, especially as someone who  grew up as the backup friend,i just wouldn’t want my friend to have other friends complete strangers who I don’t know,and I’ll just feel jealous that they’ll just put their other friends over me(also I DESPISE friend groups)

(And yes I know that sounds very controlling but like I said the average person would disagree)

And they CANNOT be in a relationship or seeking one or want to get married and have kids that’s straight up HORRIBLE.

Unfortunately in our society romantic love is prioritized SEVERELY over deep platonic love and too many times people have placed their romantic partner over their best friends which is so odd to me,now obviously somebody would put their spouse over their best friend but as someone who doesn’t want to get married or anything like that,that concept is indeed foreign.

Texting or video calling is not a rarity,What I mean by this is that I don’t ALWAYS have to be the one to reach out,too many times I HAD  to be the only one  reaching out to someone and the texting felt like I was small-talking a stranger on a subway train completely dry.

This may be controversial but they have to have the same political and spiritual beliefs 

Because for the spiritual beliefs you may not believe  In something that I do and I may not believe in your lifestyle and I think that would cause many issues.

And for the political beliefs I  think it’s pretty obvious that I wouldn’t like you if you don’t believe in straight up human rights (like for example being anti-feminist)

Not being able to properly  communicate,now I’m guilty of this but I have seen people becoming TOO comfortable with not communicating especially grown people,like what do you mean you cancelled last minute on a trip your friend has been planning for months or on her flipping wedding?

So yeah I’m pretty sure I have more but this is all I could think of right  now.  

But that  may never happen especially since I’m young,have alot going on ,connecting with people is exhausting,and I have unrealistic standards for friends and people my age in my country are very immature like extremely…it’s really hard to find people with my interest in this place man.

But It is what it is.