Medical stuff sucks

I currently dont have health insurance, so im paying everything out of pocket. this is so fucking expensive, i dont know how people with more serious disorders without insurance handle things. I pay around 130 bucks per week for therapy and all my medication is over 100 bucks. ive been shockingly stable for several months. this is the most stable ive been in a long time. I still think of suicide, but its not as incessant. daily, but not as intense. im on two different mood stabilizers, an anti-psychotic, and an anti-anxiety-- its a lot but it seems to help. soon im going to get on vyvanse for my adhd. i hope it helps me with my focus and energy.

im currently only working part time so im going insane. I love only working part time. soon ill have to get a full time position because i want to move out and live on my own. im lucky i live in an area where one bedroom places are 500-800 a month instead of 1,200. im looking forward to decorating my own space. i want it to look like a 87 year old woman lives there (who also collects seals and sanrio). I DONT WANT A DAMN BLACK COUCH FOR ONCE IN MY LIFEEEEEEEEE I HATE BLACK FURNITURE AND GREY ALL MY DAD BUYS IS BLACK AND GREY HES AN EVIL MILLENIAL