Feelings and life

I just wanna say it cuz tbh no matter who I say this to they’re gonna say what I don’t want to hear 

I’ve been struggling lately,thought are always there they’re there and I can’t do anything about it people might say oh you can work on it or even “I didn’t think i would’ve made it to 18 but I did and I got a tattoo for that” or wtv but it’s the everyday things that bother me for some reason like my grandma annoys me but not cuz she’s annoying I just don’t have patience and I try to be good but it’s hard and always I think of the past I think too much about it And ī hurt myself thinking of those (I do not do sh I meant mentally) and I feel everything so deeply like really and when I think of things I realize yes too late but still that it wasn’t good idea it was stupid for me to think that cuz why would I do that and I feel like if I say it to my friends,which I’ve sorta done it, they’re going to try to tell me to stop being lazy or wtv and to do the things to try harder and that’s not it I want comfort I don’t want them to think that because I don’t talk about my feelings I don’t have stuff going on without them knowing 

Either way I wanted to say it and yeah voila I don’t want pity or anything

And yes I keep it public because maybe some ppl struggling too will see it and know they’re not the only one that feel like it and they can have support to

Yes I keep my comments open but don’t say shit or if you have nothing intelligent to say don’t say anything