[Yum Yum Pudding!!! Blog] #1 Sorry for the negativity but I needed to air this out

TW: SA, Inc*st

I feel like an absolute monster, I feel like it was my fault for getting r*ped by my brother, none of my family members actually love me, my grandmother said that I didn't lose my innocence because my hymen didn't break, everyone treats me like I'm a child, like I'm not a mentally unstable 15 year old who got f*cked in the bathroom by his 17 year old friend, like I don't have a bunch of kinks that are more peculiar, I hate getting treated like I'm innocent.

Hey at least I have someone who does love me (my bf, I love him sm, he's the only light in my life rn besides my silly dumb friends at school, honestly school is the only escape I have from this torment)

Oh yeah, uh message to my bf: If you're reading this then I'm probably trying to cope with the fact that my family doesn't actually care about what my brother did to me and they don't view it as the catalyst of me acting this way, I'll be waking up at 9-10 am possibly (probably would be 4 PM to 5 PM where you are) call me if you get the chance, I just need someone to talk to, love you!!!!