Floating

Lately I've been feeling like my body's running on auto-pilot and I'm just floating inside of it, waiting for things to get better. Everything's happening in a haze around me, I can barely remember conversations or what day it is. My birthday's soon and even that I keep forgetting. I've since learned that that's called depersonalisation. Not that I have any idea what to do with that information. But it's nice to be able to slap a name on it, I guess. Yeah, i don't know, I've been very inactive for that reason as well. Feels like I've been stuck here for months. Not sure how to get out

I just feel like I'm hitting a new rock bottom every week.

Anyway, hope your October's going better than mine