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RANT RANT RANT ABT LIFE:

HAII codey here, ITS MY BIRTHDAY I'm 17 years old. I hope to refind these blog in ten years and be like wow that is me talking to future me wowwwwwwwwwwww. ANYWAY ITS MY BIRTHDAY gonna go to a local burger place called beef n bun I LOVEE THAT PLACE SMMM :P

Im really excited, also ordered an ABSOLUTELY BADASS POG shirt, from the artist who made at least one of their album covers if not ALL and I'm so excited jihuigyfvctdres Life has been fluctuating up and down recently. Things look completely different from the way they did a year ago and Im feeling almost whiplash from it but Im getting happier. ALSO IM GETTING A VERTICLE LABRET but after my surgery bc I would have to take it out during surgery or I will get zapped :< but I'm excited! also had my first microtear while gauging which was scary! I don't really know what I did wrong bc I waited a long time for it to heal from my last size, used stretching butter, massaged it for a while, and only went up 1 size 2.5 mm to 3 mm (12g to 10g in other terms) so idk what happened! my left ear is literally fine tho. ALSO ALSO possibly getting real drum lessons:D I'm so excited I've been practicing for almost a year now but recently Ive felt really unmotivated bc I've had a lot of issues w my mental health so I haven't been practicing at all :( but now my dad said he was cool with getting me lessons so I'm feeling more motivated again.

I have been feeling interesting Abt my identity, I've considered myself trans since about 4th grade, 10ish years old, even if I didn't use the label then all I can remember is I considered myself a boy. Over this year I've "visibly" gone back into the closet. I've been a lot more feminine because I'm kinda waiting to get out of highschool to transition back again (for far too many reasons to list). However I've come to discover I LOVE DRESSES AND I guess its not that weird when I think Abt it but it feels weird bc I've never liked things like that and it makes me feel kinda confused because ik socially people just consider me a girl and I just feel weird Abt it idk! I still go by Cody and people mostly call me they/them some people use he/him but yk I just feel like hmmmmmmmm  also I never ended up finishing that site for my pictures maybe I should.

ALSO ALSO ALSO.... I have the best signifgant other fekojihugyftrdes everrrrrrtheyre so awesome.... I love u ik ur gonna read dis. We have almost been dating a year, literally a month n a half since a year! I love you, I will be staying tuned to watch u go to trade skewl when that happens as well. Im so proud of you your doing such an amazing job, I couldn't be more proud and ur vocals r getting great and your SOOOO cool and im glad your my friend and I lovevevevev uuuuuu Xavier!!