Lonely slob

I am feeling the loneliest i have felt in a long time ( 6th grade). I sont  have any one to turn to if i needed help.. yk that stroke posing feeling when your all alone crying with tears storming down and feeling like your chest is beginning to collapse? That was me 2 weeks ago although it felt like 3- i know that there's other people my age in my homwtown that feels this way to but when you live small state (ct) it feels like you have NOBODY that can relate to youu. Its tiring hearing “youll find your people” from people who have big friend groups and big circle of friends whom that they trust. When will it be my TURNNN 🤡🤡. And for whatevea reason i have this crippling stupid voice in the back of my head thats like “ you have to be different, you arent pike eveyone else” and though i know its true its annoying becuz ik idont have the guts to reinact who I TRULY aspire to be. So WHY IS IT THERE????? Ugh and then achools just been an energy machine- sucking the absolute creativity, emotion, excitement out of ME.

     Please sombody relate