college planning for the girl who thought she wouldn't make it this far

depressingly, by the time i was... 13? 14? i thought, "no way am i making it to college, let alone senior year." looking back, that's fucking young to be thinking that!! so now here i am, less fucking young and not thinking about "not making it". here i am, a senior in high school, with my school email and actual mailbox bombarded with "apply to this college!!" "no, apply to me!!!" and i'd be lying if i said i wasn't bragging at least a little bit.

when i got out of my cynical, super depressed phase, i only planned to do something local. furthest i thought i'd go was maybe upstate. imagine my shock when i checked my email and i get offers from colleges not only out of state, but also highly rated! like christmas came early! i initially was hesitant to be honest, but my family convinced me to take the opportunities i'm given and i fully agreed. so, i'm (most likely) moving!! how fun, but also insanely anxiety inducing, although everything is if you think about it enough. best to focus on the fun part.

this is a bit of a tangent, but you might be surprised to find that with some of the more prestigious colleges, money isn't really an issue. i've attended information sessions for pretty damn good colleges, and if you have lower income, you don't need to pay a ridiculous amount, at least from what they've told me. i may have been tricked, though, so correct me if i'm wrong. the real problem is, are you both intelligent enough and individual enough to make the cut? do your teachers give enough of a damn to write a letter saying, "yeah, this student right here, she out of all people should be attending your college"? well, for me, i certainly hope so. i stay out of trouble and get good grades, what more could you want, right?

well, to tell you the truth, i'm writing this in half-procrastination-half-inspiration. if not anything else, i take an opportunity when i'm given one. i'm planning to fill out/submit applications to my most desired colleges first and use my early graduation as time to deliberate which one i'll go to.

until next time. <3