nocturnal urges [you just KNOW this is a TW.]

sigh. having the urges again. i went through with it a little but im sleepy now.

i dont wanna do it anymore it hurts. i dont even know why i do it. i cant remember his(?) face! all i remember now is. trusting him. i saw a screenshot i took i think it was us talking and he was so supportive. i wonder what happened. perhaps its better if i forget.