All the things I love about you/ miss about you

I hope that somewhere you're reading this and remember all the good times we had together, and remember that you are loved. You're my best friend and always will be, and one day when we can be together again I'll tell you how much I love you, how much I wished I had told you this sooner.

Its October, and I remember the year before last you sent me pictures of your Hatsune Miku cosplay and I sent you one of me in my Among Us onesie. 

I remember how you would get so invested in your characters and lore that you would have this distant look in your eyes while you ranted about them. I wish I had appreciated it more. I loved hearing about your characters and all the random side notes you'd make. 

I remember the first time you let me borrow a book from you, it made me feel so special. I remember how when you bought that super edition of our favorite character you let me read it first, and I was worried the whole time about breaking the book's spine on accident.

I remember when you got into JJK and how you would draw gojo during theatre and show me your pictures during lunch.

I remember how you would leave early every Wednesday for therapy and we would complain about missing each other.

I remember how you used to wear an ushanka (sorry if I spelled that wrong) in cold weather and you always looked so happy wearing it.

I remember how you would always get pissed at Mr.B for making you take off your hoodie even though we both knew it would happen eventually.

I remember gifting you that Kuromi blanket for Christmas and how you brought it to school every day. 

I remember at your birthday party I gifted you that shirt "The risk was calculated but unfortunately I'm bad at math" and you laughed so hard even though it wasn't that funny. And I remember how you told me the next Monday how you rotted in that shirt all weekend.

I remember how Leah was selling those lil Sanrio backpacks and we bought matching ones, but they both fell apart and we were sad because they were so cute. 

I remember how we used to make jokes during math class and Mr.Dunn looked so done with us.

I remember that you would complain that your hair faded to pink when it was supposed to be red.

I remember how we used to feel self consious around the popular girls and complain about them making out in the halls because we were jelous. 

I remember playing PJSK with you on our break days.

I remember how we called to play Fortnite but we were god awful (Yes WE I know you know you weren't the best either!!) and we died a bagillion times.

I remember when we used to cry over Felix because of how worried we were for him. 

I remember when you showed me the Unsainted music video for Slipknot and how we were both fangirling over how epic the song was and how great the effects were. 

I remember how we didnt always need to make conversation to bond, how we used to share headphones and listen to music while we drew silly characters.

I remember how whenever you had science and I had art we would share headphones and hope they didn't disconnect.

I remember how we procrastinated for the science fair and barely got it done, and how I put pictures of Jiffery on every slide.

I remember how during study hall you showed me the XUDE music video for that kpop group I cant remember.

I remember you used to make your facial expressions, and even now I catch myself doing the same ones you used to.

I remember small details of conversations with you but somehow it still feels like its not enough memories.

I miss you every day.

LLA 

- Noah