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My mom just told me that I used to be much more passionate about my studies when I was in 10th grade but now I don't even seem to study
She told that I used to make plans for studying and I don't do that anymore
This made me question what I have become
It's scary
And im pretty sure that this is not a change for the better
I'm scared that I'll waste my time and end up with a bad score
I used to be so serious about not falling in the trap of love
Yet yesterday, i admitted that I like someone romantically, although it's forbidden and it cannot possibly work out between us
And worse, I don't even think he sees me like that
I don't really like this change in me. Instead of moving forward, I am falling behind
I don't want this to continue, really.
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bee
barely turned 19 and im literally contemplating my whole life. i dont even want my degree yet the only thing i want to do for a job requires 5-7 years of school. im a second yr right now and I hate college. i want to drop out but its not an option for me cause im brown and ill dissapoint everyone. it might get easier or worse tbh. i wish i was interested a career that only requires a 2 year associates degree. we just growing. we gonna have flop years and years when we thrive. gl girl
Wahhh so real, I get you mann, being brown is hard fr(I'm brown asw), and I don't want to study for another 4 years or sum but I got no choice if I pick engineering:(
And yeah you're right, we're just growing up, and there's no choice but to go thru all of this
I hope it will get better for both of us gng
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Number3
It’s all part of growing up, things don’t always unfold as we hope, and that’s simply a reality of life. You either choose to forgive or you don’t. Initially, you may struggle, but over time, you’ll gradually find your footing again. I experienced my own challenges during high school, but once I graduated, I felt an immense sense of relief. Now, at 18 and soon to be 19, I’m still contemplating of what to do with my life.
Don’t give up just yet.
Yeah I guess it happens to everyone, we can't do anything except hope for the best and keep working instead of giving up.
To be honest, it's lowkey beautiful, it's like reading a book and you cannot even guess what will be on the next page, and the best part is that what you do in the present will shape your future, which is the next page. Wow.
by han; ; Report
Exactly, I suppose that’s the surprise of life. You never know when good or bad things will happen, what matters is that you try. Sometimes, good things come your way. Everyone deserves every little bit of happiness, or little thing.
by Number3; ; Report
Yes exactly!!!
by han; ; Report
Yes! :)🙌
by Number3; ; Report
𝐻𝒜𝐼𝐿𝐸𝒴 𝒢𝐿𝒪𝒪𝑀𝐼𝐸
maybe you're burnt out?
Yeah maybe but my grades are sort of stable, I am just not able to study as much as I used to
I used to wake up early in the morning and study but nowadays I cannot really bring myself to wake up early
I feel like I've become too lazy
by han; ; Report