motivaiton yap

i wish i had motivaiton to do thigns vecause like i gotta clean my rrom and i keep going yea im gonna clean it im gonna clean it but once i actually try to clean it im liek uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh andm then get distarcted abnd its like idk whyc ant i dot it i cant focus on cleanign im so brainrotted i forgot how to clean and ijdmsankfubsjk duhhbghjjh i wish i coudlk cleann all the time and not when i have random boost of motivation at 1am.  ughj genuoneley why fo i procrastinate like hwats the scientific reasoning behind why someone procrastionates. can someone extract the procrastinating part of my brain and burn it??oh wait you cant cauyse you mightasweell burn the rest of the brain while your at it cause i procrastionate FOR EVERYTHIGN even like going outside i meabn dont get me wrong i love going outside but whenevr iactually make plans 70 percent of the time i end up not going cause i "dont feel good' when i actuallyt just like changed my mind cause im tired. like i cancel most of my plans iwth my irl friends cuase like idk man i jst like ujhnjdnjkd;sbfjk;shlnx dont know how to explain it and i know it sounds really douchebaggy that i just keep cancelling, which, like it is but like i cant i cant do this man like im actually like dissasociating from this universe. i havent felt like the brightest lately but i wont let that stop me!!!!!!!!!! i am feeling enlightened. 

Despite all my rage i am still just a rat in a cage

11:37pm 10/21/2025