I want CHRISTMAS!

I've been longing for some Christmas spirit recently. Skip the trick or treating and the pumpkin pie. I'm ready for Christmas. All about it is just so... Magical. Last night, I stayed up until 3am watching Christmas tiktoks. (Yes I have tiktok, no im not friending you) I can't wait for the movies, music, baking, decorating, vibes, and it always makes me so happy. (Warning, I get kinda personal here) Last years Christmas was... Something. I got some accessories from Claire's and a Barbie coloring book. I'm not mad, but you can obviously see the problem here. My grandma did get me a lot of hello kitty stuff. There was a lot going on with my family. When I first moved in to my grandparents home, I was always wanted to stay downstairs and not be in my room all day. When I finally started using the living room to watch a lot of tv and okay piano again, they told me to go upstairs and stop staying downstairs. And just a month after Christmas, we had 2 family deaths just weeks apart. 

I'm hoping to have a Holly Jolly Christmas! (Sorry if I just trauma dumped...) Even though it'll be the first Christmas without my mom... I'm still excited for Christmas. I've just felt kinda empty without it. December is the only month that makes me feel happy, to be honest. 

Anyways, bye!! This was kinda not like my usual posts, this was kinda deep, but is anyone else excited for Christmas? (Watch out for Mariah Carey, I see her defrosting)