life and what my life has been like

ughhhhh, dude my life has been crazy and yes I'm going to save most of the sob story but ill give a little glimpse of what what life can be like (some of you have might have experienced it)

i was born obv and then i was removed. like okay but also how rude. i guess that should have been the sign that life was going to get a lot crazier, like a lot. from there moved to the most horrid family(i know yall wont see this but honestly f yall) crazy part is that their parents took me in. the strangers who took me had their parents take me in so then I'm living with my "new family"(still same family) some how better but also somehow worse.

they were/are old and i was young (like 4) and they i guess taught me how to be a person. I'm thankful that they taught me to be a kind hearted person, although they were also not that great:/ but i lived with them through the ups and downs. never fully leaving but attempting to on occasion when things got bad. at like 13 i was basically playing doctor, EMT, and caregiver... (shoot i guess that helps with where my life is now all things considered.)

i ended up getting sent away and had to move from state to state because from what i was originally told that it was from smoking the devils grass, come to find out its because they hated my boyfriend (granted he was awful and cruel) but when in love i guess everything is somehow lined in fairy dust and laughter.

parents got old i was on and off living on the streets or shelters (didn't know anyone in the states i moved to so no friends or really anyone to turn to) met my bio family around that time, i was so exited and amped up. but tbh they were nothing like how i expected them. when we were face to face it felt like i was looking into the eyes of a Stanger (i kinda was)

ended up back in my hometown got back with ex (he had changed tbh for the worst) he told me sweet lies and then threw me to the curb (ouch) ended up on the streets again and while there i decided to skip town (granted it was with a toxic man apparently escaping the law) 

now I'm in my new town, at first it was a struggle. being with that toxic man and having so much crap happen and things that i dare not speak about on here. but I've realized that after leaving him and starting to find myself life is looking up. I'm still struggling a bit but tbh its so much better than where i started out. and even if everything falls apart i still have my cat and some decent friends.

i say this all to say, life cant be all sunshine and rainbows and honestly things will get hard (now this part is so cheesy) it does get better. things come in waves and we just have to ride thoes waves. its not about the destination but the journy and the sights :)