why are days so short

i dont know if im alone on this one or not but i wish days were like twice as long (same for night time btw), every day i get home from school, have no energy left, collapse, yap on discord VC for hours trying to gain some sort of energy then do stuff like chores/organising my room/little jobs for other people i know, and then it gets to 1am, i'm barely lucid and stumbling into bed for another 6 hours of sleep, and have to haphazardly remember i need stuff like my laptop for school tomorrow so i plug it in from inside the schoolbag, then ALSO remember that I had a shit ton of homework + revision that needed to be done before tomorrow... and yet it never gets done...

this whole year of school has felt so lethargic it feels like ive been in the same space and state since when i started it. and i just wish i had the time and energy to catch up with the world more, or at least with the classroom. i do well on most tests, i pay attention, i just have no time or energy to ever focus outside, i have too much other shit i want to do. it doesnt just apply to schoolwork, everything i do has to have some sort of purpose it feels like, so i drown myself in small projects so that i get that little hit of dopamine every time. i havent sat down and just played a nice video game in about a year.

i dont know how much longer i can continue with this mindset. i thought it would last me until the end of the HSC but i very quickly realised that when i get a real job/go into university nothing will change. nothing will change forever.

anyways midnight doom post over how are yall this evening? good? tired?