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i’ve always been the introverted one, the kid that didn’t talk to anybody except if they talk to me first, been embarrassed for being myself so i always thought that i wasn’t interesting and replaceable. thats how i thought in the past. know im 24 yrs old and i’ve learnt that people really like my company, love me and care about me. even though i matured and learned, i still have that little “insecure me” inside.
i’ve never felt like this for a long time, the thing is that lately those negative feelings have returned (oh no :0).
in terms of relationship sometimes i feel like shit in comparison with other people. i know im not the best looking and im fat, but i try to not think about it. i know he loves me. BUT…the thing is, my friends MADE me feel like this.
soooo let me explain (yeah ik, the bf talk isn’t the main problem i just wanted to talk about it :P). we all wanted to go to a halloween party, but because of uni (my friends) and my work we can’t agree on a day when we can all go. after considering several options we found a day that suited everyone. two days suited them and one of those days suited me so the day that i can go suited everyone. REMEMBER THIS: i had been saying for a LONG TIME that i really wanted to go out partying with them (and i wanted to cosplay sans because i find it funny). and after talking about it so much we agreed on a day. perfect, right? well, NO.
my friends have other friends in common who where only available the day that didn’t suit me, and my friends finally said that they want to go with them because one of their friends really wanted to go together…ok? i was really looking forwards to it too :/. i’d been saying that for a whole month, and they went to more parties with them lately…and for once we all agreed, you’d rather go with him than with me?
at that moment i got really angry, felt replaced, but i didn’t want to mention it, so i kept quiet. at the end of the day i know that is all nonsense. why am i getting upset over something so silly? i don't even enjoy partying that much LMAO. but the fact that they left me for other hurt me a little
its funny how this kinds of things still bothers me. i find it curious. but after thinking about it some more i’ve decided to let it go. i don't care anymore.
has someone had an experience like this? is it normal to feel like this? i now it’s a silly thing but i dunno… ._.
if you are here thanks for reading haha, i know i’ve gone on and on a lot whoops.
have a great day and be always cool.
love u all <3
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GdsFvBnd
I have a similar experience, but in a different way. A couple years back I used to be the only single person in a group of couples. We had planned to go to Luna Park together, and though I'm not big on thrill rides, I was happy to go hang out. A week and a half ish out one of the girls told me that they've decided to make the hangout a double date, and that I've sort of been ommited. So it's not like I was replaced, I was just the fifth wheel, the pity friend, redundant.
So I get it. I've long since drifted away from them, and I am doing a whole lot better than I used to be XD
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TT wtf but im glad that u are better!! it makes me mad when people are like this ughhhh
by derpz⋆˚꩜.ᐟ; ; Report